today is the 2nd last day i'll be able to see you in the office. cause u'll be on leave all the way until our last day then u'll be back in the office. as usual, i waited for you to take train home together. as we approached your stop, i alighted together. i wanted to walk you home. why, u may ask me? reason? 我害怕that this might be the 2nd last chance that i'll ever get to walk you home. i'm really afraid of our last day of attachment. will it be our last day together?

as we reached your block, i asked if you could accompany me awhile, for a chat. but you just took the coincidental door-opening lift and went up home. well, that hurt a little. as i walked back to the station to be on my way home, i msged you that i felt more 亲切 chatting face to face. actually my real intention was just to take another look at you. 我只想再看你多一眼。就那么一眼。因为我害怕attachment完了就没有机会了。i also asked if i still stood a chance, as i'm afraid that i'm fighting a losing battle. sadly, you didnt reply me.

foolish thinking, some people who are reading this might say. but as till now, i still do not know how are you feeling inside your heart. whether is there a space for me. everytime we come to this topic, the subject would always be changed. as i boarded the train home, i started to imagine the worst case scenarios and some drops of tears just fell. i even received stares from an aunty standing beside me.

as much as i really hope that you feel for me, if you do not like me and do not feel the same way as i do, please find a nice way to put the message across to me k? 因为对我来说，你已经成为我生命的一部分了。生命如果少了一部分，就不再是完美了。

just want to thank you for yesterday, for giving me a great time, laughing and taking photos together with you. looking at kong wei and jo, how i wished they are not the only couple over there. perhaps someday we'll be able to do the same, being blissfully in love with each other. perhaps..

不知道你读了这些会不会反感，但我总得把心里的话说出来。
所以先说声对不起。

爱你的心是玻璃做的，一旦破碎了就难以在愈合