these few days had been rather ________.
i cant find a word to describe it.

didnt managed to see her for 3 consecutive days. been juz sitting there and dreaming/missing/thinking about her almost the whole day. den finally managed 2 have a chat with her on msn, in the end did some stupid things and made her angry or rather upset cause i made too many requests from her. in the end i stayed up late to make her a sorry card cause i dont want her to be upset with me anymore. she means the world to me and i really cant bear for her to be unhappy about me.

rushed down to her place to give her the card and the gift which i intend to give her on our 2nd month anniverary this afternn, hope i didnt shock u too much (which i always do). do you hate surprises like this? must let me know if you do k? and now, i need to source for a new gift.

but thinking back seriously, am i making too many requests? i know i wanted her to call me more often automatically, give more to our relationship and perhaps give me some surprises but its only sensible she does some of these stuffs automatically since we are in a relationship together rite, cause in a relationship, some things dont need to be said out but you will still do for your other half rite? no matter how little, we tend to set expectations from our other half and expect them to fulfill them. sometimes, its the smallest gestures that make you feel loved. that is all i ask for. because we are humans who needs the enjoy the process of being loved. but dont get me wrong! i'm know she loves me and i really really adore and love her very much too.

or perhaps indeed i'm asking too much from her? am i being too demanding? but on her part she has to be a little bit more 'hardworking' aint it? well, diff people hv diff perceptions on relationships so i guess in this situation no body is to be blamed. instead of putting the blame on each other's head, being more understanding to each other needs and sorting out issues seems more sensible AND important.

hope you dont find me as a troublesome nuisance >_<"

its precisely we are in the early stages of our relationship thats why we need to get these kind of issues sorted out early. its a 2 way thing and both of us also have to change. i have issues inside of me I will let you know and if you have issues inside of you, you also must let me know. open up our hearts and be true to the other party. that is the true and correct way to build a healthy and happy relationship for our future isnt it?

For the better of our future! lets jiayou to our relationship my dearest wawa! i'm so looking forward to our future! :)