somehow. when u said those things in msn just now (by the time u read this maybe like yesterday or refer to 'that day'), it felt like a thousand or even billion arrows shooting on me.

i felt so bad. :(

i feel like crying. but im alrdy near tears when i type this.

im a lousy gf. :( :'(

im a lacking of initiative gf. im a spoon-fed gf. i take everything for granted. im like shit. damn u ahwawa. u failed to make him happy, surprised, watever that is positive at times.

:( :(

but i just wanna say i love u.
<3